I already know where this is headed and I want no part in it.
They are writhing and dying and burning.
They are not here to be pretty.
I am trying to learn from them.
from my book, which can be purchased here:
Today I had to step back, recollect and remember things for what they are now. You are not entitled to feel anyway nor should you. This feeling was all too familiar to me, like it never left. Entirely too unsettling and upsetting for my head. I pulled myself back into a feeling that I’d forgotten, but in an instant this wave of emotion hit me. Fuck.
Get it together.
This isn’t something I’d ever even entertain at this point.
It’s honestly not like I’m looking for something in anyone. I’ve enjoyed the company of really cool people but no one gets me like you did. That kind of connection is so hard to come by and I don’t think that I’ll have that again. I know everything we had wasn’t perfect in the least bit but damn did I feel something strong. It’s so hard to make me feel anything anymore